What would I have told my past self, back when my days started to get painful, confusing, and suffocating?
It is not yet possible to travel in time, but if you need the answer, I will tell you.
I would have said: You share the same nature as the cosmos. You are part of it, and therefore, it is likely that you are governed by the same principles. So trust that you will grow. Soon, the pressure of tragic experiences that now seem like grotesque monsters will be nothing more than proof that you can continue growing. Soon, you will look at these facts as you look at a small, lost asteroid — once it has fulfilled its task of making you grow, it will slowly be lost in infinity. But you will have expanded.